there is noone else

I am sick of brown hair now. I think I want to go back to blonde. Though my profile pic it looks rather nice, but thats about the only time I have thought it did look nice, haha. So blonde foils in the next couple weeks I say.

I have made a new friend. We seem to get along well. I'm enjoying getting to know her. I work with her. She tends to get bored at work when I am not there. Makes me laugh. hehe. I invited her over tonight after work for some cake, cause I baked a yummy chocolate cake. She stayed for ages, like she didnt wanna go home. I get the feeling she doesnt enjoy being at home with her parents and siblings. We'll see where the friendship goes. I am looking forward to inviting her to Church soon :D

In Christ Alone

This song has got to be one of my all time favourite Worship Songs. Any version, any artist.

I am pretty lucky if I can sing it in Church on Sunday and not cry. Most of the time I do. I think my husband knows now to just cuddle me when we sing it. The words are just so meaningful.

The last verse gets me the most :

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

Anytime I feel down and out, I just need to listen to the song and I feel so revived and priveleged to know Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour.

Anyway its 1.18am and I need sleep! *tears* yes it was just that part in the song :D

forgotten?

I keep forgetting to do blog in my blog. Not good hey?

Do you ever feel like everyone around is having such a great life, and somehow you have been forgotten about? Well Im feeling like that right about now. I do feel really love my husband and family and friends, but sometimes I just feel like everything is against us. I am really grateful for the people I have in life with me. But it's like everyone is getting everything they want when they want it.

And then there's those people that life is just so freaking perfect. EVERYTHING just falls right into place for them. But then I think I wonder if its just cause they "brag" about life and what happens to them? Maybe deep down they are really sad and not happy. Who knows?

I know right now I feel pretty ripped off. As soon as life starts maybe getting better, getting on track, WHAM right in the face another punch.

Maybe one day I will be content? probabaly not.