there is noone else

I am sick of brown hair now. I think I want to go back to blonde. Though my profile pic it looks rather nice, but thats about the only time I have thought it did look nice, haha. So blonde foils in the next couple weeks I say.

I have made a new friend. We seem to get along well. I'm enjoying getting to know her. I work with her. She tends to get bored at work when I am not there. Makes me laugh. hehe. I invited her over tonight after work for some cake, cause I baked a yummy chocolate cake. She stayed for ages, like she didnt wanna go home. I get the feeling she doesnt enjoy being at home with her parents and siblings. We'll see where the friendship goes. I am looking forward to inviting her to Church soon :D

In Christ Alone

This song has got to be one of my all time favourite Worship Songs. Any version, any artist.

I am pretty lucky if I can sing it in Church on Sunday and not cry. Most of the time I do. I think my husband knows now to just cuddle me when we sing it. The words are just so meaningful.

The last verse gets me the most :

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

Anytime I feel down and out, I just need to listen to the song and I feel so revived and priveleged to know Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour.

Anyway its 1.18am and I need sleep! *tears* yes it was just that part in the song :D

forgotten?

I keep forgetting to do blog in my blog. Not good hey?

Do you ever feel like everyone around is having such a great life, and somehow you have been forgotten about? Well Im feeling like that right about now. I do feel really love my husband and family and friends, but sometimes I just feel like everything is against us. I am really grateful for the people I have in life with me. But it's like everyone is getting everything they want when they want it.

And then there's those people that life is just so freaking perfect. EVERYTHING just falls right into place for them. But then I think I wonder if its just cause they "brag" about life and what happens to them? Maybe deep down they are really sad and not happy. Who knows?

I know right now I feel pretty ripped off. As soon as life starts maybe getting better, getting on track, WHAM right in the face another punch.

Maybe one day I will be content? probabaly not.

Mac & Cheese

Its the best :) Deluxe Macaroni & Cheese from Kraft. No other can compare. Mmmm, me and DD are having it for dinner. Hubby is having pizza. It's a real healthy night in our household, not.

DD is still having some pain with her Bacterial Pneumonia. Poor darling. Thinking of going to the movies tomorrow to see Up. Maybe, we should stay home and let her rest still. Kind of sick of that, seeing thats all we done all weekend apart from Sunday Morning Church.

Maid Much?

I've been thinking that I need a maid/cleaner. haha. So never going to happen, but how I wish I could. The past month life has been extremely busy. I have no time to clean the house. I mean right now I could be, but hey that would be neglectful of my blogger. No I will be cleaning for majority of the day today.

My DD is sick. She has Bacterial Pneumonia . But she is on anti-biotics now, so it should not develop anymore than it has. She was in horrible pain yesterday. My poor darling. We spent a good few hours at the Hospital with her.  She is also a type 1 diabetic so they stress out about anything that goes wrong, so do we.


So another reason I cant be bothered cleaning today. Tired, worried and just plain exhausted.

Scones

Oh how I love Scones with jam & cream. The making them part is annoying, cause I'm not good at making it dry. Mine are always sticky and get stuck all over my hands. But today's effort in the positive mood I am in WILL NOT be STICKY. So Nan, or Great Nanna to my DD is coming for afternoon tea. Though the issue of not hot water is still an issue. Hopefully the Plumber will come today to do it, soon. My sink is full of dishes, that I am not washing with cold water, ewwww.

Just spoke to the Plumber. We are waiting on the Owner of the property approving the fixing of the Gas Water System. Meanwhile I'm sure he's in his big mansion enjoying a clean house with a nice warm bubble bath. Extreme I know. But I need my hot water back!

So back to dreaming about my scones.....mmmmm.....yummmmy

People

When the people I cherish most in life are not around me. My world crumbles. Though its all on different levels depending on who it may be thats missing. For example when friends are far away I really feel the need to talk to my Mum everyday. So at this point in life the a couple of my close friend arent near by, so Mum's the word. But then my Parents go away. Gee thats like half my life just got up and left. Spose thats what happens when the relationship between parents and children are so great. When my DH is not at home, I feel anxious and lonely.

It's strange my behaviour when I am alone. I think about stupid things that don't even matter. Maybe as I get older I will learn to adapt to life more on my own. I don't think I was like this when I was single and not a mother. I didnt care about anything. I had no cares at all. I went where I wanted and did whatever my little heart desired. Funny how life does a massive 360 degrees in a matter of 6 years.

I feel like crumpets. I might have some with butter and vegemite, mmmmmmmm

New Start

Well this is a new start where noone knows me. I blog in an online journal normally a few times a week. But its locked so only a certain amount of people can read it. I'm thinking I'd like to start one with the whole world watching. Nothing to be ashamed of, nothing to hide. Hence the lack of personal detail.

Life for me in the last 3.5 years has been difficult. Many struggles I've had to face. I'm still trying to figure it all out and do what Im spose to do, one I do I'll get back to you on that.

Fathers Day today. My DH had a great one. DD made it great :) Only bad thing was the gas hot water system stopped working last night. The Plumber came out to fix it but he doesnt have the part to do it on a Sunday. So no hot water. I am an avid late night bather. I HAVE to have a bath every night. Last night, NO BATH. So I am going to my in-laws for a bath. They are away travelling the rest of Australia.

Shall come back later on :)